A Soliloquy

Aah how sweet your face looks in my hands. Your smile adjoins mine. I can see your grin in the afterglow of the spent candles. The brows above your eyes are touching mine. Crease less. No anxiety, no frowns tonight. Isn’t the music soothing sweetheart. Are you asking me for a dance? You know I don’t indulge in this silliness. Oh, you are moving me across the floor. And when did you learn the steps. Yes, I think I get it, one, two, three, left and twirl. You are just making me dizzy my love. Ahh I close my eyes, and feel the coolness of this breeze over my face. It fills my soul. I am as light as a cloud. Yes, I am flying free.

I am afloat. 

Take my hand, come hither. Let’s go explore those trees over there. Aren’t the flowers lovely? I can smell them in my hair. I put them up for you especially, don’t you like it? Take a walk with me along this road, love. Oh, watch out those cars. Don't you dare fall on the road again. No, don’t show me those scars; they are already nicely healed up. Now come, lets move. You won’t ever find the paths on your own. Let me go first and then you follow, okay?

See, I am walking ahead of you. Oh no, you can’t race me. I will fasten my pace. Let me unload this baggage off my hands. I was burdened so. Ahh, now I am free. I wanna hear your voice. Will you read to me? About love? And hate? And Stars? Under that tree is my bench, you remember? I will sit on it and you may take the floor. 

Lets run to it. You will have to run faster to beat the moon. Oh, you can’t catch me. You are so far behind my love. But surely you are following me, no? Don’t get lost darling. See the road is turning ahead. Come fast. The sun is down cast. Its getting darker. The road seems new and unknown to me. 

Come quick or I might not find you again! 

It’s a dark road the driver has taken, stay with me on line for a bit longer. It’s an unknown road. Does he know the way? Didn’t you tell him that I have to come home to you? He knows the way to you, doesn’t he?

Oh, why won’t you reply!

Speak up Love, I can’t hear you.

I know you are out there. Our journey is near to its end, I am told. My hand is getting stiff darling. I can feel the anxiety jerks set in to me. I fear I am losing you. Am I coming nearer? May be I am drifting further.  I can’t see you in the dark. Will you end this game already? I am scared of the dark, you very well know it.

I am feeling the walls now. They are familiar like you. Oh, I have hit my head somewhere near your door. Now, is that your mocking laughter I hear? I do smell your breath at my neck. Here’s a slap for your cheek. God, my hand hurts.

Don’t hug me you careless dog. No, I won’t smile, you know I am angry at you. No, your kisses wont melt me this time. But you may kiss my head. Yes it’s soothing, I hit it hard. And the throbbing hurts. Feel my heart, its jumping out of fright. 

Ahh My Darling. 

Won’t you kiss my hand too, it burns so?

Now I open my eyes.

Oh. . . ! 

But. . . its only me!

I am just here.

Held in this infinite moment.

In this darkest void.

Alone in my turmoil.

Just me with this promise.

That lies heavily on my hand.

The solitaire diamond. 

And my moist eyes. 

--Scarlett